This is probably the hardest post I will ever have to write. It is also probably going to be my most personal post as well. I am so lucky to have an outlet through music and through this blog where I can share with whoever cares to read my opinions, in a very personal way. I feel like lately I’ve been constantly defending myself in saying that my blog isn’t actually that personal, but let’s face it, it is. And I’ve also come to terms that I wouldn’t do this any other way. I love connecting with people about music and if it wasn’t personal, I wouldn’t be able to do that. All of this gives me the freedom to write the following post. One that means the world to me. Please read this with an open heart and mind. That’s all I ask.
For those of you who know me, you might’ve noticed I had the distinct honor of being in one of my very good friend’s wedding this past September. I was a bridesmaid for my friend Kristen and was able to witness her marry one of the kindest people I have ever had the pleasure of meeting. It was a beautiful wedding for a couple who showed nothing but true and genuine love.
A little less than two months after that wedding, I received a phone call informing me that Kristen’s husband, Brad, had passed away. An unbelievable and unfathomable phone call, one that took me several hours to even grasp. With tragedy, people can do some amazing things, though. I have watched my friends rally behind Kristen to help her during this time. They have absolutely gone above and beyond. It’s been an incredible thing to observe. And so now it’s my turn.
I don’t have many talents in life, but what I do have is an ear for music, and a lot of people who care what I have to say about music. I decided a few weeks ago to make a playlist for Kristen. Music is a therapy of sorts and I wanted to help her with something that has been a great aid to me. I painstakingly have torn myself up about this playlist. It had to be absolutely perfect. Later on, I decided it would be a great idea to share this playlist with the public for the most deserving reason I could think of.
No one should have to endure this. No one should have to experience this. And yet, here we are, left to help out our friend and pick up the pieces of her life. It is an honorable task to fulfill and one that has brought us all closer as friends. We’re a family more than anything and when one of your family members suffers, we all suffer. So I will do anything in my power to help my friend, my sister, out. This is where you guys come in. I hate asking for handouts or money, but fuck it, I really don’t care at this point. Money is the last thing anyone in her position should have to think about. If you have anything to donate, myself, my friends, and especially Kristen, would be forever grateful.
I hope her story and this playlist moves all of you. It’s meant to be sad and tragic, because this is sad and tragic. There’s no other way to describe it. And I want to personally thank you for reading this, for listening to these songs, and for helping out my friend. Have a wonderful holiday season.